a look into the not so glamorous side of motherhood. . .

Often times reading blogs, it makes life look so perfect. And most the time its not far from perfect. . . Everything I wanted and dreamed of. But those dreams have the Not so good sides too. 

So as perfect as my last two post have my life seem, let me just give you the other side to my life.
Today I feel very lonely. A single mom. With Zach going to work at 630am and school till 10pm.  I struggle!  How do I juggle two kids? How do I give kypton the attention he once was used to, while Bronx is screaming to be fed.  How to comfort Bronx while kypton is throwing a fit for not letting him go outside when it's dark outside. How to get kypton in the bath and to bed, while Bronx is screaming from a belly ache.
How do you do it? I don't know what the heck im doing? And how to do it alone?
As hard as today as seemed, I know it will get better, there,s always tomorrow to try a little harder.

Sorry if this doesn't make sense.  My emotions are raw and at the surface.
MOTHERHood is hard, yet I wouldn't choose to be anywhere else. 

Im learning everyday, and hopefully kypton will understand that im doing my best to divide my attention equally. And that I love him just as much as I did before, if not more! And hopefully Bronx can feel my love for him, and not just my stress. 

And besides all that, I hope at the end of the day when Zach is home, he can feel my love for him, and not just all my crazy emotions. 

"Be Calm & Carry On"

A Family of FOUR, a Mother of TWO

                                        

Kypton has always been PERFECT in my eyes, and I didn't think I could LOVE him anymore then I already did. . . But there is something about him being a BIG brother, that warms my heart, and brings on a whole new LOVE. 

I LOVE being a Mom of TWO, and a Family of FOUR!